When pain offers hope
This post is part of an ongoing series chronicling my battle with abdominal pain.
Don’t worry, I haven’t lost my mind. I do not enjoy pain. However, there is one form of pain that I actually look forward to and am thrilled to feel. I love feeling abdominal adhesions rip from my sidewall. To be honest, it is not the pain that I enjoy, instead it is the hope of a decrease in overall pain and GI symptoms that brings me joy. When the hold they have on my bowels loosens, I’m albe to eat with less pain. At the very least it pauses the internal tug of war between my sidewall and organs. I not only look forward to this pain, I purposefully do things that will may cause the adhesions to rip and tear. There is a reason that I am obsessed with the fast rides at Disneyland, they help loosen the spider web that is inside my belly. I have also began castor oil therapy. I soak flannel in castor oil, apply to my belly, cover with plastic wrap and a thin towel, then top with a heating pad for 45 minutes several times per week. I have heard that this treatment has been known to dissolve adhesions and I am willing to try anything!! I also use the a CBD tincture to curb pain induced nausea.
I have been experiencing a lot of pain from the ripping of adhesions for the past week and a half. The upside to this is that I have been able to eat with less pain. Food is moving through me and I am enjoying more than one meal a day! Even better is having a bit more energy. My energy level is nowhere near what it was a year ago, but it is higher than it has been in weeks. I am still struggling to find my new groove and hope that this spell will last long enough for me to figure it out. In the meantime, I am doing what I can while I am able. The relief I experience from the ripping and tearing may only last for a few days, weeks, and if I am lucky a few months. If I am really lucky, some of that time will be void of the ripping pain as well. Until then I will smile through the pain and enjoy lunch with my family!
Wishing you a day filled with many reasons to smile!
The Disabled Diva