For most, Mondays are the most dreaded day of the week. It marks the beginning of a hectic schedule. While my friends and family are complaining that the weekend is over, I find myself rejoicing every Monday.
Long ago prior to living the chronic life, I also despised Mondays. I looked forward to relaxing on the weekends and hated that they had to end. But something changed after my chronic illnesses took over my body. Weekends were no longer a time of relaxation, instead they became the most exhausting period of my weeks, even though the activities really never changed. Spending time with friends and family, going to church or Disneyland, or enjoying some other hobbies used to be relaxing. Now they require more energy then I could have ever imagined. Instead of being bummed that the weekend is ending, I actually look forward to what I call Mellow Monday.
Monday is a day that I don’t have to worry about going anywhere. Monday is my day of rest. Sometimes my Monday lasts for the entire week, just depends upon what my conditions have in store for me.
I often dread the weekends in the same manner as those who dread Mondays, it depends on the pain I have experienced during the week. When my weekday pain is elevated, I become anxious when I think about the weekend. If I had to be somewhere on a Monday morning, I would have to spend my weekends doing nothing. Gotta conserve what little energy I have. This is why I try my hardest to avoid scheduling any appointments (social, medical or work related) for Mondays or Tuesdays. Don’t get me wrong, I love the weekends. I enjoy the people who are home or around me and what ever we end up doing, but the peace and quiet of a Monday morning is something I cherish.
At first my manic Mondays were replaced with stressful Saturdays. Will I have the energy to get through the weekend? If I am able to keep my weekend commitments, how many days or weeks will it take to recover? If I leave my bed or house this weekend, will I be able to do so the next? I would become sick to my stomach worrying about all the “what ifs”.
Not too long ago, I replaced Stressful Saturdays with So What Saturdays. So what if I have to spend the next week or more in bed, I will have the memories of today to comfort me. So what if what I do today exhausts me and I have to sleep for days, it’s not like I have anywhere to be during the week. So what if I fall behind on household chores, I haven’t been able to keep up with them for 17 years! Knowing that I have my Mellow Monday waiting for me makes it easier to make the most of my weekends.
My chronic illnesses have done more than change how I feel, they have literally turned my world inside out and upside down. To be honest, it really isn’t all that bad. Or at least it hasn’t been since I was able to accept that this is how my life is. Just as I am unable to predict which part of my body will be in pain or rebel against me each day, I have no idea how long my body will punish me when I do get out. Thankfully, by being able to blog and work on other projects from my bed, I am able to play harder when I do get out.
Are your Mondays manic or mellow? Do you look forward to or dread the weekends? What changes could you make to gift yourself with a mellow Monday?
Wishing you a day filled with gentle hugs and many reasons to smile,
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