2016 has not been the kindest to me in regards to my physical pain. I started off the year with a severe cluster flare (several conditions flaring severely at the same time). I spent the first two and a half months with all or some of my conditions continuously flaring at some level. I finally caught a break a few weeks ago when my Psoriatic Arthritis went into remission and my other conditions settled into what I consider average pain levels.
For three glorious weeks I enjoyed living with a pain level that allowed me to do more than usual. My medicinal plan and getting plenty of rest assisted in my being able to take short walks. This is in addition to going grocery shopping and running errands and is something that I haven’t been able to do for 6 years!!!! For two weeks I have been taking my dog for 5-10 minute walks once, twice and sometimes three times a day!
Knowing that my physical state can change without notice, I was careful to not fall into the delusion that this would be something that I could do all the time. Instead, I kept the attitude of being thankful and rejoicing for each day that I was able to do so. I also reminded myself daily to not allow my bubble of joy to burst when I had a day or long term spell that prohibited my ability to walk.
Thankfully I prepared myself, because last Sunday I awoke to intense nerve pain between my ankle and heel in my left foot and a sprained thumb. Don’t ask me how I sprained my thumb in my sleep, because I have no idea. Anyways, I probably should have stayed off of my foot that day, but being the stubborn gal that I am, I took my morning walk. I went slower than normal as I had to be careful where I placed pressure on my foot. Later that afternoon, I was struck with intense pain from my sciatic nerve and nerve pain in my right foot as well. As you may have guessed, going for a walk wasn’t an option come Monday morning.
In the past this set back would have devastated me. However, nowadays I just roll with it. This set back may only last for a few days, or depending on all my other conditions it may take weeks, months, or years until I can resume my daily walks. Either way, I will continue to be grateful for whatever I am able to do each day. If I spent each day waiting for wonderful days, I would never accomplish anything, because I would be too focused on what I couldn’t do and I would be miserable. Instead of focusing on what I can’t do, I try to focus on what I can do or see if I could do the same thing by taking a different approach.
When I focus on my losses, I become depressed and stressed, which only exasperates my conditions. I prefer viewing each day as a new opportunity to live my life the best that I can. Every day is a challenge and I play to win! Are you struggling to find the silver lining in your cloud today? Stop dreaming about what you used to do and focus on what you can do. And most importantly, NEVER compare your new life to your old life!!!! The old me would have laughed at what I consider WINS today.
A good attitude won’t take away your pain, but it will make your life and its setbacks easier to deal with.
Wishing you a day filled with many reasons to smile and gentle hugs,
The Disabled Diva