Welcoming Fall with mixed emotions

Disneyland-HalloweenSomeone forgot to inform Mother Nature that today was is the first day of fall, because it still feels like summer in sunny Southern California!  However there is a touch of fall in the air as our nights have been cooler and I am physically feeling the benefits of the shift in seasons.  Fall and Spring have always been the best seasons for me physically and why I look forward to them with great joy.

I find myself struggling to celebrate the decrease of physical pain today.  No, it is not because I like hurting, it is because of what this decrease has allowed me to do.  You see I have a friend that is dying from cancer and has reached her final days.  As much as I hate to be reminded that my situation could be worse, it is true.  I may have to live with daily physical pain, but I am not dying.  My decreased pain level has allowed me to spend time with my friend, to hold her hand, to pray with her, to comfort her, and make her smile.  It has allowed me to help her husband by giving him time to run errands, make arrangements, and sometimes to just take a nap.  A few weeks ago this wouldn’t have been possible as the end of summer heatwaves had me shackled to my own bed.  As for this week, I feel that since I was blessed with a “good” week, that I should share the blessing with my friend and her family.

The strange thing is that although spending time with her and helping her family has increased the pain in my spine, I am not emotionally bothered by it.  I won’t lie, I am exhausted.  I ended up going to bed at 6 pm last night and didn’t wake up until 5 am this morning.  But my exhaustion is more emotionally based than physically.  I am trying to be as careful as I can physically, as I don’t want to push myself to the point of not being able to leave my bed for even just for a few hours.  On the other hand I am pushing past my normal boundaries as I know that I have next week, the week after, and so on to recover.  My friend does not have this luxury.

Choosing how we spend our time when we are gifted a “good” day or period isn’t easy, especially when we know what we have chosen will cause greater physical pain.  With or without pain, life isn’t easy.  I am just thankful that I have been in a position to help this past week and that I am also able to help today.  As for tomorrow? Who knows? I just plan to take it day by day and pray that God provides everyone with the strength to get through whatever situation they are in.

Do different seasons treat your body better than others?  Has fall weather arrived where you live?

Wishing you a day filled with gentle hugs and smiles!

The Disabled Diva



Published by Cynthia Covert

Diagnosed in 2001 with psoriasis, followed by fibromyalgia, psoriatic arthritis, endometriosis, and later a botched hysterectomy turned her world upside down. Cynthia shares her experience, advice, and tips for how to make life with chronic pain easier and less painful.

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