Ugh!! Today is one of those days in which I feel like I am sinking. There are a few things I need to accomplish today but with each attempt I feel like I am sinking further behind. Is it really too much to ask that my body cooperate for just a few hours? The frustrating part of this is that my overall pain from Fibromyalgia and Psoriatic Arthritis is relatively low which should make doing what I need to do today fairly easy. But NOOOOO, last week my abdominal adhesions decided that they would begin strangling my bowels again. I want to vomit, but I can’t because I have nothing to throw up. I am hardly eating and am always nauseous. Coffee with cream is the only thing that soothes my tummy. MMJ does help with my nausea, but I can’t take it when I what I need to do is run errands. Also because my adhesions are strangling my bowels, every little morsel that I put into my mouth causes my belly to swell. The pain is just awful and doesn’t encourage me to want to eat. Two days ago I could feel some adhesions ripping away from my side wall (I’ve suffered from this since 2004, and know my body’s process very well). This is usually a sign that the nausea, vomiting, diarrhea , and pain will soon be letting up. Unfortunately, this round of fun seems to want to last longer than I had hoped.
Okay, enough of my whining. I just need to suck it up or throw it up, and do what I can and accept that there’s always tomorrow. Even though I can’t stand how I am feeling, I know that today will still be a good day as long as I am able to keep my head above the water. I will be writing more about my battle with adhesions later this week. It’s a battle that many do not understand and one that I refuse to lose.
Wishing a better day for all spoonies,