I’ve been debating whether or not to share my most recent chronically ill related embarrassing moment. I was so humiliated that I swore my husband and daughter to secrecy the moment it happened. As days passed I realized that this is not the worst that has happened to me and that I have shared much worse with you all in the past. Since the purpose of my blog is to put a smile on someone’s face and remind others that they are not alone, I decided that it was worth sharing.
My latest embarrassing moment took place during my most recent Disneyland therapy day. But first let me explain a little about what led up to the moment that caused me to laugh and cry at the same time. I suffer from abdominal adhesions. They like to attach to, pull and twist my bowels and bladder. Bladder issues like leaking or having a sudden urge to go without notice are common. To combat this I prefer to wear a pad when I away from home. And that is just what I did that morning.
Thankfully I was experiencing a good bladder day. No need to rush to the restroom and no leaking! The con to this was that by late afternoon I had forgotten that I was wearing a pad. And this leads me to my red faced moment…..
My husband and I decided to cool off by riding the Grizzly River Run in California Adventure. Because I require a wheelchair we entered the handicapped gate and had time to chat with another handicapped guest and his family that would be sharing a raft with us. We were riding with first timers from England. The ride was great, everyone got soaked and had a blast. It was after our raft pulled up to our docking area and I stood to step out when I saw what I could only hope that the others didn’t. Peeking out of the left leg of my Capri pants was my pad!!!!! Okay, peeking is putting it gently, there was a good 3 inches hanging below the hem line! Horrified by my discovery, I quickly and hopefully discreetly grabbed the pad and shoved it into my pocket. I doubled over from laughter once I was seated back in my wheelchair. I laughed so hard that I cried.
All I could think of afterwards was how the heck did I not feel that darn thing move down my leg!!!??? But the more I thought about it the more it made sense. You see, my left thigh is always numb. This was caused by a sloppy surgeon many years ago. Occasionally I will feel deep muscle pain or topical nerve pain, but that is it. Since I had been having a problem free bladder day, it seems obvious that I forgot to pay attention to how secure my pad was the last time I used the restroom. For all I know it was already on my thigh when I reached The Grizzly River Run. And since my right leg and the remainder of my left goes numb while sitting, I can understand how I never felt the pad slipping down.
This moment has me thinking that adult diapers may be a better choice. As much as I despise that idea, it if far better than having the public see my pad hanging out of my pant leg. I am just thankful that the pad hadn’t fallen onto my feet!!! Can you imagine!!!??? “Ummm, that? well that is to keep my feet dry!!!”
So there you have it, my latest embarrassing moment. All I can do is laugh it off and think of ways to prevent it from happening again. No use in being sad about it, it is what it is…. It wasn’t my first red faced moment and it won’t be my last. The next time your conditions cause you to have an embarrassing moment, just remember that you are not alone!
The Disabled Diva
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