In my post To make or not to make, I shared how my bed must be made if I want to be productive. Well this week I had to trick my brain into giving my body the rest it required. The week started out with my head feeling like it was filled with sand. I couldn’t focus on anything other than some simple correspondence. As the week progressed my head began to clear, but the nerve pain caused by muscles attacking my spine and neck increased. Although my brain was clear and ready to work on projects, my back and neck wouldn’t allow me to sit up or hold my head up long enough to write more than a sentence or two. As my annoyance increased I realized that I had three choices. The first would be to fight through it. The problem with this option is that my muscles would end up even tighter than they were and it would result in additional days stuck in bed, unable to do anything. My second option was to medicate as heavily as I do at bedtime. The problem with that is that I would have slept the entire day away. Physically this would have been my best option, but I didn’t want to sleep the day away. Instead I chose option number three. This was to medicate just enough to keep my body relaxed yet low enough to stay awake and catch up on some of my favorite TV shows. I began to feel restless just after one episode. Before hitting play for a second episode, I had to figure out how to relax. Then it hit me! I had made my bed! Because of this my brain wasn’t happy with relaxing, it wanted to work!!! So I quickly messed it up!!! Once I had all my blankets and pillows arranged in a way that encouraged rest, but not sleep, I was good to go. I was no longer anxious and was finally able to enjoy my day of binge watching my favorite shows.
Today I reap the reward of listening to my body. My pain has decreased. I still need to take it easy today, as my muscles still aren’t happy. They are already trying to attack my spine whenever I sit up for more than a few minutes and with every step I take. Other than a quick trip to my dispensary for more meds, I plan to spend my day resting once again. This post is probably all I have the energy to sit up for. Here is to hoping that my nerve pain continues to decrease. While no pain is welcome or fun, there is some pain that I have become accustomed to and nerve pain is not one of those!
The battle of the mind vs the body is never ending. Accepting that my body won’t allow my mind to do what it wants is beyond frustrating. What are ways that you trick your mind into allowing yourself the rest your body is craving?
Wishing you a day of decreased pain and smiles!
The Disabled Diva
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