On the mend

This past week I discovered what was making me so sleepy the week prior.  Long story short, it turns out I have Bronchitis.  Nine days since it smacked me down and I am finally feeling like I am improving.  No where near “normal”, but there is definite improvement.  I would like to thank you all for your kind wishes for healing and for being patient as I was MIA from social media.

This past week was a reminder of why I choose to treat my chronic conditions and pain with marijuana.  Unfortunately I was not able to control my cough with natural or over the counter methods or medications.  Because I was in so much pain my doctor prescribed a cough medicine with codeine.  Holy Moly!!! I hope I never need to take this stuff again!!!!  While it did a fantastic job at suppressing my cough and relieving the pain throughout my rib cage, the games it played with my brain were terrifying.  I want to be clear in that I do not mix marijuana with any other substance.  I refuse to drink alcohol or take anything besides Tylenol or an allergy pill when I medicate with marijuana.  So the minute I heard that my cough syrup contained Codeine, I knew that I wouldn’t be medicating with marijuana until I finished the prescription.  At first I worried about being able to fall asleep.  Of course being as sick as I was and having such a strong cough syrup, lack of sleep was not one of my issues.  In fact that is about all I did.  Two days in and I found myself wishing that falling asleep was an issue.  You see the dreams that my cough syrup caused were so freaking scary that I began to fear falling into a deep sleep.  There were several instances where I woke up screaming.   Another side effect of the codeine was an over whelming feeling of sadness.  I found myself crying over things that I wouldn’t normally shed a tear for.  Although I am just beginning to improve, I am thankful that the cough syrup is gone!!  I will get through the rest of my recovery some other way.  I need my marijuana dreams and happy thoughts back.

For now I am just thrilled to be on the mend.  If it takes several more weeks until I am back to “normal”, so be it.  In the meantime, I will do what I can, when I can, and the rest can wait.

Wishing you a day filled with gentle hugs!!!

The Disabled Diva

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