Living with chronic pain is not easy..
Some days are better than others, those are my good days.
Those were the days when I would run myself ragged trying to catch up on and do all that I was unable to do while stuck in bed due to a severe flare.
My down days were spent feeling guilty for not being able to help my family or to at the very least prepare them dinner.
The harder I pushed my body, the more time I spent in bed.
My body couldn’t keep up.
It took many tears and years to listen to my body.
My house is still messy and I rarely look my best,
but my life is so much better now that I accept losing days and weeks of my life at a time.
I am not active everyday, week, or month.
A flare can be as short as a day or as long as several months.
There is no way to predict the length or severity.
All I can do is go with the flow and ride it out.
When I say I feel like time has flown by,
it is not because I have been too busy to notice…..
It is because I may have only had 4 active days in the past month.
It can be depressing to think of all the time I lose,
but I prefer to think about the days I wasn’t stuck in bed.
Do yourself a favor and instead of allowing a calendar to dictate what you should be doing, listen and obey your chronically ill body!!
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