The oh NOT so lovely brain fog has come for an extended visit. Fatigue along with nerve and/or muscle pain that is stems from my spine and neck will cause my head to feel like it is filling with sand, feeling heavy, and makes concentrating on anything almost impossible. Imagine walking through a foggy forest, feeling disorientated, and each time you think you have found a path to lead you home the fog grows thicker and the path once again disappears.
I have been fortunate to not have suffered too many of these days in the past few months. And when I did, they didn’t last very long. The past seven days are another story. The weekend prior I spent Friday at Disneyland, attended a Graduation party on Saturday, and ended it with a trip to Palm Springs on Sunday. Surprisingly I didn’t feel too bad when I woke up on Monday morning, I went to bed Monday night thinking about how lucky I was to have had so much fun and for once I wasn’t having to pay a high price of pain. Prior to waking up on Tuesday, I was having a vivid dream. In my dream I had been shot and could feel an intense stabbing like pain in my back and around my ribs. This pain is what woke me up. No, I hadn’t been shot in my sleep, but it sure felt like it. Instead the source of my pain was from my sciatica and other nerves near my spine being pinched.
For the past seven days I have been in a fog. The intense pain makes my brain feel jumbled. To combat the pain I have had to increase my dosage of pain medication. This just adds to my fog and/or puts me to sleep. I have been lucky to have a few hours of clarity here and there. As for my pain, I can finally put weight my leg and hobble about the house when needed. Other than watching a TV show or a movie, trying to grab a few minutes here and there to write, and sleeping a lot, I am not getting much accomplished.
Time to rest as my fog grows thicker. Projects can wait until it clears. I have a good incentive to allow my body the rest it needs. This weekend my Prince Charming and I will be celebrating our 15th anniversary. He has planned a very special weekend for us and thankfully I won’t have to be in top form to enjoy it.
Dreaming of the weekend, waiting for the fog to clear…..
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