For the past two weeks I had been using THC in various forms to combat my pain. It reduced my pain in a way that I have never experienced thru prescription medications. No it didn’t cure me, but I felt alive and was able to do more than I had been able to do in a long time. I now know that this is the full time pain relief route I want to continue on. The reduction of my inflammation was amazing. And I was HAPPY, no I wasn’t flying high, I was happy because I felt better. Pain really is the driving force of my depression.
Now that I am back on my prescription pain meds, I can clearly see the handful of nasty side effects these pills have added to my “symptom” list. But I will put up with them until I can afford to get my medicinal marijuana card or until I run out of meds.
I have a feeling I am in for a rough couple of months. I have less than two weeks of prescription pain meds left and no money to obtain my medical marijuana card. Affording a doctor visit and filling prescriptions is also out of the question. With Christmas so close, I need every extra penny to be able to have at least one present under the tree for my daughter. Truth is even without Christmas, I couldn’t afford my co-pay. Somehow it will happen, don’t know how, but I have faith.
For now I am back on the crazy train, emotions out of control, waiting for the day I can step off and get some relief.
I just want to state that I am only sharing my experiences. I am in no way telling anyone what they should take or not take to manage their pain. No ones pain is the same, no ones body is the same, so why would our pain management be the same. I do not and will not judge anyone for the choices they make in their quest for pain relief and ask for that same respect.
The Disabled Diva